When I’m thinking of myself, it’s easy to get lost. It seems I’m always stuck between two worlds.
There’s the want to create companies, to make money, and to just be a complete, utter badass. And I know I got it in me.
Then there’s this whole world of spirituality which is just like “I am”, then whatever I add after it is my life. It’s the world of transcendence and existence through non-existence.
Now, this non-existence isn’t actually a void, just like space isn’t the antithesis of matter, but rather its complement. But this isn’t an article about understanding spirituality. It’s an article about myself.
Now, here’s the thing. We’re all fragmented. Or at least this is my understanding, since I am. My being pulls me up in many directions at the same time, and I’m really excited about all of them. Yet it’s also exhausting because of the way my mind works.
You see, the way I see my mind is that it’s always “this or that”. I have categories for things. So for a long time, I’ve been thinking that:
– If I’m a spiritual being, I shouldn’t get involved in business and creating companies. In short, I should give up the world.
– If I’m an entrepreneur involved in the world, I can’t be a spiritual being.
Yet in practice, I can’t be any of them, since as I’ve realized, I’m not the conceptual categorizations I create in my mind. I’m instead the whole of my being which moves in harmony with my inner and outer worlds.
I can’t be one or the other, since I am not a conceptualization, but an alive being. And this alive being so-happens to know a lot about spirituality as well as entrepreneurship. And it so happens that I am always involved in both.
Now, I know this is hard to reconcile through the mind, but when I truly look with my heart at it, there’s nothing to reconcile. But I’m doing progress, and now I’m slowly stopping the whole game of categorization. Instead, I’m starting the process of integration, which is the opening to the fullness of my being without any fragmentation.